so sleepy

an update: I am now gainfully employed FULL TIME, working as a dresser on this production of Pride and Prejudice. Full time theatre work. It's the first time that I've done that outside of summerstock. And I'm making twice what I was making at Gap. But it's tech week and I'm working fourteen hour days and I am so fucking tired it's unbelievable. I'm not as young and energetic as I once was and I have so much shit that I need to be doing for the wedding everyday, and I am a little stressed out by it all. But I nearly cried when I was told last night at 11pm (after working 12 hours) that I needed to be in in the morning at 10:30am. I really hate it when work consumes my life. Because I really need a balance of work and recreation/errand/creative time. I don't havethat right now and it's frustrating. I have big plans to paint my dining room this deep wine color an rag it lightly with gold glaze, etc. etc. and I still have not been able to get to Home Depot to get the paint. I really want this to be done by the time I runn off to get married in a couple of weeks. And I really want my home to be organized and clean for when we come home from the honeymoon. (Fucking bridal nails are making it very difficult to type -- another frustration.)
And because of all this stress, I am breaking out. Badly. Like high school. And I know that it's vain, but goddamn it I really want to be a pretty, glowing bride on my wedding day. I want to have no bags under my eyes (I have the full luggage set stored there now). I want to have beautiful, clear, glowing skin (not pepperoni pizza). I don't think that I am particularly vain normally, but I don't plan on getting married again, so as far as I am concerned, this is it -- I have to get this right. Fuckin' A.

I have to run off to Bloody Pride and Prejuduce now. The preview starts in 9 hours, so I hope that I'm not late. Good thing it's a 3 hour long production. GRRRRRRR!

that, alert readers, is all.